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Tuesday, 06 July 2010

I know I haven't blogged in a goooood 6 months, but why the hell is everyone pregnant but me!??! Can I get some babies vibes this way please?!?

Sunday, 31 January 2010

I know that I haven't been on here in quite some time. I actually think about deleting my xanga, but cannot build up the courage to do so. I've had this thing for years.
My life is going well, and I am still not pregnant. I find it difficult trying to conceive when Chris is only home for one day out of the week. I try not to get my hopes up, and just do the damn thing! But damnit, there is only so much I can do. I might look into an ovulating test and see if that may help. I was hoping for something around the holidays, since Chris was home a little more. But hey, I think it's good for him to be in Shreveport right now. He's making good money working out of town, and I feel like it's what we need right now. Financially. We're still on a roll with savings. Oh, speaking of savings. I got into a wreck earlier this month, and it totaled my car. Yeah, there went 4 grand onto another vehicle. Two totaled cars in 8 months? Damn, I'm lucky. I'm scared shitless to drive now - to say the least. Oh, and I'm still trying to file a claim with GAP insurance which is one big fucking headache!!! I should feel blessed...really I should..
We're still getting Caleb every other weekend. I swear, I can't believe how big this kid is getting. He's turning into a little Chris with his smartass comments too. Gotta love the Gilliams boys. I also think everything is coming together with him. You know, how his parents separated? He's made a couple of comments about how his mom is married to Casey, and how his dad is married to me. He says "Dont you think it's kind of weird?" It's not really my place to explain, so I try not to say too much. Right before we moved back, Caleb started calling his step-dad "Daddy". What kind of shit is that? I think Caleb is piecing all of that together too. Chris wont think twice about correcting him either. It shouldn't have to be this way either. More power to him..
So, little miss Shiner. Our Basset. I think she's soon to become a little woman. I just have this feeling. Well, and the fact that Battle is all up in her muffin makes me question it a little. So, I bought Shiner this damn dog diaper. I've never had a female dog. I think those diapers are so bizarre! LOL! I put it on her, and I couldn't help but feel like I had a damn kid. It's so funny. I bought it so I could be prepared. I didn't want her to go into heat one day, and I have to leave her all day while I was at work. I don't know how this bleeding shit works. I know how mine does..so let's get prepared!!! lol So gross..
Did I tell you that I got a gym membership? Yes, I sure did. I signed an eighteen month contract. Wooowee! I've lost two pounds so far. So, hey!
I guess I will go. I'll try to update more!! :)

Saturday, 05 December 2009

It's been a while, hasn't it?
I haven't been busy at all. Plus, I have most of you guys on facebook. :)
I'm still working for First State Bank. (( I hate it too!! I'd leave if I didn't have insurance yet. ))Our Christmas party is tonight too. I am still hoping Chris will be able to make it. He's still working in Louisiana. He was lucky enough to get four days off last week for Thanksgiving. We got a our Christmas decor up and got most of our Christmas shopping done too. We actually had Caleb for Thanksgiving too. My mom & her boyfriend came along with my sister and her friend. It was nice. It's been a good four years since I've had Thanksgiving with my family. I had to work Black Friday, but got to get off work early in order to do some Christmas shopping myself. Chris got up at 5 in the morning with his buddy, Jason. That is so not like Chris, but he surprises me every day. I have officially bought Chris a Amazon Kindle, a hat rack, and some hats for Christmas. I don't really know what else to get him? I thought it was hard when he was in the Army and knowing that if I bought him anything that he probably wouldn't be able to use it..or use it for long? Now what is the deal? This kid has every thing.
Caleb is growing up so fast. I still can't believe he is 7 years old. I totally have a seven year old stepson. He's so smart and loving. I love having him every other weekend, although, I wish it was more.........or full time!! :) I'm enjoying having him whenever we can....
Did I tell you guys that we have started TTC? No luck yet. It's only been a month and a half though. I'm really trying hard not to get my hopes up. I just want to have fun? ha! I went to the doctor two weeks ago, and it was really positive. I love my new doctor. I haven't had a civilian doctor .....well in a while! It's sooo nice. She actually gives a shit about me and my state of mind. I initially made the appointment due to a weeks worth of spotting. It was so weird. I have never ever spotted. I thought something was wrong? No, I think I was just putting my body through crazy shit. I was slowly trying to get myself off of Paxil. I got off my birth control. I also was trying to quit smoking. Yes, I am crazy. I know this. :)
The fur kids are doing well. Our Basset is getting sooo big. It's only a matter of time before she goes into heat...or maybe I am just really dreading it!! She's such a brat! :)
Well, I think my clothes are dry. I'm trying to get everything washed, including our sheets off our bed. Bleh. Wish I had a maid..

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Tuesday, 06 October 2009

My birthday lunch @ Chilis (chris hates pictures!)

At my best friends wedding this past Saturday..

The best best friends in the whole world! :)

Thursday, 17 September 2009

This rain is wearing me out! It has been raining since Saturday!
Luckily, it stopped raining just enough to have Caleb's football practice last Tuesday. Hopefully, it will stop this evening too! Caleb is starting to do really good in football. I am really excited! He loved playing his first game too. I can't wait to get his football pictures back! He was such a cutie! I spiked his hair and everything!
So, I'm not going to really get into the drama, but there has been some. And - you know with who! Guess? I bet you guessed right! Baby momma. Yes, indeed. Some things just never change! Chris is hoping to resolve it this evening. Tiffany has just been lying about Caleb's teacher calling her due to his bad behavior. Well, Chris contacted the teacher and the teacher has never contacted Tiffany. We're both pretty upset by this, especially since he has been grounded from every single thing and spanked daily. Not cool at all.
Chris is ready to go back to Shreveport. He's not getting a lot of hours back home like he was told. He's pretty upset by it. We should both be grateful he is home though. He should be going back to Shreveport next Thursday. Make that money honey! :)
My job is going okay too. I'm finally used to getting up earlier to open the bank. It's all good. I'm getting paid fool!
That is about it....

I know. I never have anything to say! :) I'm just not that exciting..